desicion..

hye peeps! it's bee soo long since my last post.
been busy actually, so do forgive me. hehe :P


so, the main reason why i want to update my blog is because i want to blurt out something.
something that has been keeping it for mt\yself for so long, and i wanna get it out from my chest.


it's been a while since i've fallen in love with somebody.
the first person i've ever loved with all my heart is my senior.
i've been loving him since i was in form two until i'm form 5.
then, i thought that we don't have the chance to be together so i decided to accept my first boy friend.
but after i accepted my first boyfriend, i found out that he actually have feelings for me too.
but it was too late because i was with someone else and i could'nt just dump my boy friend for him.
that's just not me. so i tried my hardest to forget him, pushing him away from my life.
and then few months later, i broke up with my boy friend. and in a short period i accepted my best friend as my boy friend.
i only accepted  him because he understands me, or i think he was...
but when we're lovers, things starts to fall from it's place.
so i've decided to broke up with him.
then i met this guy, he's my senior but from different course.
at first he's kind, understanding and all, but after i accepted him he started to change.
and because of that i broke up with him.
then, this other guy, we're only lovers for only one month.
lepas tu broke up sb tak tahan jugak.
but actually, among all of my boy friends, there's only one that i love the most, which is my first boy friend.
yang lain2 tu stakat sayang je, xlebih dr tu.
but i've been loving this one guy since when i was in semester one at UiTM until now.
i loved him because he was very understanding and he know things without having me to tell him.
like for example, when i was feeling down, he knows about it even though i didn't tell him anything or show any sign.
i loved him so much, but then i found out something about him, something that really hurts me, he broke my heart into thousand pieces and i cried so hard, nasib baik time tu tgh cuti semester, so bole la aku nangis sorang2 tnp perlu risau ade orang dengar ke tak.
i know i'm stupid because i still love him so much even after what he've done to me.


and since then i never loved anyone because i'm scared, scared of my heart will be broken over and over again. it was too painful for me to handle.
so i lock my heart, not giving any space for any men that tried to open it.
so many guys come and go from my life, feeling heart broken when i rejected them.
but i've warned them from the beginning that we can only be friends, nothing more.
but they always expect something more from me. and in the end, their heart was broken and they blame me.
is it really my fault? i don't think so.
and now, i just wanna say something to those guys out there,
PLEASE STOP EXPECTING SOMETHING FROM ME.
i don't wanna hurt anyone's feelings.
i'm sorry..

Hey guys! Just wanted to say that I'm on a holiday and I promise you that I'll update this blog as soon as I get back. Bye! :D

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D

OMG! OMG!

hey there! it's been a while since my last post. (a while lah sangat kann. haha)
this will be a very short post sb just nak share something really interesting (to me lah kan)
nak tau tak ape dye?
nak tau?
mst nak tau kan..
hahaha

just this morning, i was surfing the internet, and sebab kebosanan yang melampau-lampau, saya type la 50 most popular women on the web.
lepas tuu!
tengah sedap2 tengok gamba carta 50 most popular women on the web..
tiba-tiba...


OMG OMG!

gila la wehh!
rase cam aku type 50 most popular WOMEN on the web..
tapi awat laa ade sorang laki boleh sesat dalam carta niy?
yg paleng xley bla tu, lelaki tersebut menduduki tempat ke-7.!
even scandal dye pn tak tercalon, cmne tah dye bole tersesat dalam list niy.
nak kate khunsa..takkan lah kan.
haishh.
pening..pening..
btw, nak tau sape??
korg mst terkejut, tp cm da expect la kan sb dye mmg popular.
especially among girls.
haaaaaa...
da dapat tangkap aku tgh cakap pasal sape?
belum?
haihh. senang je kot nak teka.
tak nak teka? finee.
lu tengok la sendiri.

FUHHH...

haa kau! terkejut tak?
terkejut tak?
dengan 34,200,000 results, menduduki tempat no.7!
tapi pelik kan, tah cmne tah dye boleh even listed dalam cart ni.
haihh..-_-''

p/s: kepada Bieber-maniacs di luar sana yg tak sanggup nak terima hakikat, u alls can go check it out for yourselves.

step 1: type 50 most popular women on the web at google


step 2: open the first link okay..


step 3: straight go to no.7

hahahahahahaha :D

Kebosanan~

Hye peeps!
bosan wehh hari ni..da la bosan, kelaparan pulak tu. haihh.
da lapa mst nak gi beli makanan kan (ye, sy mmg tak reti masak dan malas nak masak.haha), aku pn mintak la duit pada abangku yg tercinta untuk membeli makanan untuk disantap bersama.

adik: weh, bangun. nak duet yg mama tinggalkan smalam
abang: japgi aku g la belikan. pukul satu nanti laa~
adik: hmm..yelaa..

tapi. tengok skarang pukul brape?? PUKUL 1.53 PM! haaa. amek kau. lambat satu jam.
kalau habis lauk kat blakang tu..mmg kau jela yg aku makan nanti. hahaha

okay, change subject please! haha

as u alls know, budak2 uitm kan cuti (tak tau la u laen same cuti ke tak kan. hehe), and ku rs adelah amat baik cuti sminggu ni.
nak tau nape? nak tau tak? nak tau?
fine ah.
xnak tau xpe!
AKU NAK BGTAU JUGAK! hahaha
sb....
 jeng jeng jeng
AKU DAH MAKIN HITAM WEHHHHHHHHHHH

oh tidakkkk!!
wat penat je berkurung satu cuti sem lps sunburn ms karisma.
tengok tengok naik sem je da burn balik.!
lagi teruk wehh..
time karisma hrtu xde la straight 6 jam berjemur, sb tu tak teruk.
time naik sem niy, ms SBB la ku kene berjemur.
adoii..cmne nak cerah balik ni wehh..
HITAM KELAM TAU TAK..
sedih aku.
da la hitam, balik rumah kena gelak ngan mak+ayah aku.
ade ke patut dorg ckp dorg salah amik orang, terambik keling tepi jalan mane tah.
KEJAMMMM
sob3 :'(

so aku harap2 sangat la ms cuti ni cerah balik kulit ku ni.
klu tak sepenuhnye, sikit pn jadilah.
*fingers crossed*
hehe :D


pepatah pada hari ini :

hitam hitam si tampuk manggis, sungguhpun hitam, isinya manis.

kalau rasa kelat macam mane? :(